I have $24 dollars of Grace per day
I spent 1 of those dollars on thoughts for tomorrow
I have $23 dollars of Grace to save
Or tomorrows Grace I’d have to borrow.
I spent $2 of Grace on thinking of bills I can’t pay
And $3 on looking into apartments for rent
I have $18 for the rest of the day
So I think my Grace isn’t really well spent.
The nurse called and my kid got the flu
I had to leave work early in a hurry
I spent $7 on Grace to get me through
And to think it’s only 12:30.
My husband gets home with some bad news
My anxiety is at peak and it’s 4:07
He got laid off and handed in his tools
I checked my wallet for grace and all i had was 11.
I didn’t want to get into it
I just wanted us to enjoy our meal
If we started talking, my account will dip
It was worry that I tried not to feel.
For every time I worry, my account goes low
Because there is only enough Grace for 1 day
See, tomorrow has enough problems of its own.
Yet I keep spending Grace the wrong way.
If I keep thinking and worrying of my future
My future that I cannot see
I waste today’s Grace a lot sooner,
then I run out of it before 3.
It’s not God’s design for us to be anxious
About what’s ahead or behind
We should live and love who’s around us
In the very moment we’re living our lives
$24 of Grace a day to spend on the day we’re in
I’m saying He’s given sufficiently when our eyes are always on Him
We respond so hastily to our feelings. We may even pay more attention to our own feelings than the Written Word of God. There have been plenty of times when I felt God’s love for me was nonexistent, but I learned that those feelings were far from the truth. I listened to those lies over and over until scripture went through one ear and came out the other. Listening to our own feelings produces an invisible barrier around the heart that blocks the truth from entering. Ever felt like the pastor was preaching an encouraging, grace filled sermon that you felt didn’t apply to you? Those are feelings taking over preventing The Truth to come to life.
God has taught me through various trials that I had to pursue Him even in the hardest, busiest times of my life. When things are going smoothly, reading scripture is easy. Seeking God is no struggle. It’s when life takes over, when 24hrs isn’t enough to get things done, when everyday we’re in survival mode that we may stop making God priority without even knowing it. Making sure rent is paid is super important to all of us. Making sure there is food in the fridge for our children is vital. The enemy is keen to what matters to us the most and may choose to attack those areas to distract us. Yes, we pray and ask God for help but that 1 hour a day we used to seek His face sometimes turns to 10 minutes. Its human to respond to our feelings, to respond to an empty refrigerator, to a negative bank account, to loneliness, but it is spiritual to respond with urgency to the Holy Ghost.
Once we begin to push and bring ourselves out of the funk, we begin to see miracles. The struggle may not be over, but the anxiety disappears. We start to see the little love gestures God puts in front of us to show that He is in control... that He cares. There are many verses with stories of people who lost hope and God came through. Read them, and declare the restoration of your hope. Fight through the feelings, don’t give in! God has the last word.
Read about Sarah! Pregnant at old age???
Read about the woman with the issue of blood whos hope was restored
Moses also "felt" a certain way about himself
If the joy of the Lord is our strength (Nehemiah 8:10), what do you think of that sparks that joy? Is it the things that He has done for you? Miracles, breakthroughs or victories? How about His love? There is a song by Phil Wickham called “Your Love Awakens Me” and I have it on my “Worship” playlist for many reasons. We can’t unlock the best of what God has for us unless we are fully aware of how much He loves us.
The world has made it difficult. Some of us were raised without fathers. The man responsible for being a leader, a provider, to be our security and our standard of love is nowhere to be found. Some of us placed our hearts in the hands of our spouse and they tore it into pieces leaving nothing but empty promises, betrayal and abandonment. How could we understand the magnitude of God’s love if we don’t know how it feels to be loved? How could we ever trust a Being that isn’t visible or a God that isn’t perceptible? They say to trust in the Lord but trusting the closest people in our lives has proven to guide us towards sorrow and failure.
God is way ahead of us and already knows our deepest troubles hindering us from receiving the fullness of His love. Like scripture says, all we need to do is touch the boarder of His garment for a breakthrough. Push through the crowds, reach out and His power will begin to flow. We must give love another chance but this time, from God. Let’s read scriptures daily and watch how the words come alive for us in our time of need.
When His love awakens us, we begin to see who we are in Him. We are set apart, special, the apple of His eye. He cares for our sorrows, He cares for our pain. He puts peace into our hearts when things seem to be at its worst. I’ve witnessed His love to be more powerful than anything that claims to offer love in any other form. Because of His love, He has taught me to love my family like He loves me. Not just an ordinary love but a love that requires sacrifice. I sacrifice myself, my desires, my comforts and my will for them and I will do it over and over until I die. That is what His Love has done for me. It awakened my spirit to be a better person. To lift myself up from despair or to break out of my shortcomings. He teaches me and molds me into His image every time I get a taste of the Love He has for me. I can’t measure His love; therefore, I can’t imagine how great it is. When He simply shows me a hint of His heart, I can’t contain myself. His love for me opened my eyes to the sorrow of this world. Suddenly, I want to dedicate my life to the ministry and give it all I have. I mean, He gave me His Only Son.
We can’t receive His love unless we tunnel our eyes towards Him. Forget what others has done to you and give it one more shot! You won’t regret it.